almost my birthday =D

I'm at a point now where there's no more time. I can longer say that I have time to think about it because I don't anymore. I don't have time to decide and think about it, now I have to know. And...i just don't. I know what people are telling me to do, but I don't know what to do. I feel like everything is just passing me by and it's just sort of all happening without me. I'm just tired of feeling this way. I wish I just knew in my heart where God wanted me to be. Maybe I do and I'm just denying… Continue

And it was awesome!! I went having an idea of what to expect, but it was so amazing because I ended up finding everything that I needed. Ever since I was in the 8th grade, I always felt in my heart that God was calling me to the UTC. At that point, I knew next to nothing about it expect that you go there to get closer to God. Once I started high school, though, my focus began to shift to seeking worldly success for myself. I compared my life to the lives of others in my school. I began wanting t… Continue

Have you ever felt like the shoes you were given were a little too big? Have you ever felt like they were really big? I have. My Pastor just asked me to teach a youth bible study at my house. My first reaction was complete shock, followed by an immediate 'yes'. But, I don't know. I know that we as human beings never feel like we're adequate enough, but man, that's exactly what I feel like. I feel like I was just given a really big pair of shoes and I'm not 100% sure how to walk in them. Througho… Continue

This is something that I have to say.
I'm lazy.
I don't always listen to my parents when they tell me to do something.
I don't always pray when I should.
I don't read the bible as much as I should, and sometimes not at all.
Sometimes I'm ashamed of myself.
Ashamed of the way that I look,
the way that I act,
the things that I say.
Sometimes I look in the mirror and don't even recognize the person that I see.
Sometimes I'm afraid to be a witness,
To step out of my comfort zone,
To sacrifice myself… Continue

I've always been wondering, and its just been something that I started to think about right now. Is it best to do what's best for yourself or do whats best for the people that you think God might have called you to work with? I suppose the best thing would be just to ask God and hear it from Him. I don't know. I guess it's no secret that a part of me still holds things against those who I feel like left me behind. But, I don't know, God's healing my heart. It's hard to move on from something tha… Continue